Hi!

Hello~
I'm Nana~
My OTP is InooBu~ though I like TaDaiki and YamaChii as well~
and everything with Inoo-chan in it... (--)

Here's a link to my index, though because I put summarries in it, it became soooo long, and it exceeds the LJ's maximum words, so I have to split it into 2 indexs.
I'm getting tired of managing this, so probably I won't update it anymore (Believe me, YabuNoo's index is getting out of hand...)
So for newer things, please click for "Archive" in my journal~

Here's the first one with InooBu, HikaNooBu, and Hikanoo fic list~

And here's the second one which contains YamaChii, Tadaiki, YamaJima, InooJima, and Jump x oc

The last time the indexs were updated was : 1/1/2016

Oh, I don't really mind random adding, but don't expect me to add back unless you introduce yourself...
and if someone does random adding I usually will give them a 'hi' PM...
Also, here are some other accounts in case you want to be friends there~
Twitter : @Nana_with_Lala
Insta : jumping_nav

Jaa,
(•́ ₃ •̀)
-Nana

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The End of This Journal

So yeah, this journal has been around for about 4 years (more or less, less actually i think), I was a high school student when I started this journal. Student with lots of time that is.

I'm in university now, and I'm about to get through my thesis. Things get bussy and depressing for me. This Journal never updates anymore. I have lots of idea I want to write and post but I don't have time to do this anymore.

I'm not quitting fandom (in case you think I am... I tell you it won't ever happened). I'm still in this beautiful fandom and still loving the boys... I'm just quitting this Journal, and there isn't possibility that I'll be back.

If I ever comeback it would be whole new different name and whole new different Journal (though completely the same OTP hahaha)

Thank you for those who read this journal. Thank you for those who befriend me. It has been wonderful time.

Oh and...
Happy Birthday to my favourite, Inoo Kei~
He's 27 now~

Well then...
Good bye~

(。・ω・。)ノ♡

Faking Game - Extras

Title : Faking Game
Pairing : Hikaru x Inoo
Rating : PG
Genre : Romance, university-life
Summary : Inoo is on his 3rd semester on Architecture, his love interest is guys and he's having trouble with his friends. Mean while Hikaru is on his 5th semester on Computer Science, he still can't get over his first love and he has trouble with his girl friends. They accidently met, and they make a fake relationship to solve their problem with their friends.
Note : These 2 extras are actually meaningless, it's just some things I have in draft but didn't make it to the main story haha

[Extra 1]
~~~
-This is before they are dating but after Inoo falls for Hikaru-
-Day ???, 11:00, Computer Science hallway : Inoo Kei-

I don't know what the f*ck I’m doing here. My class got canceled and Akira and Haru are not around, and here I am lingering on the Computer Science. What am I expecting actually?!

“Oh! Kei-chan, looking for Hikaru?” Someone asks. I don't know him… who is he? But he knows Hikaru so perhaps, Hikaru’s friend?

“Oh right, I’m Arioka, Hikaru’s friend. He’s in the lab, he’ll be here soon,” he said. Now, even if Hikaru turns out to be a homo, he’s definitely not going for me if he has such cute friend like him… Damn it’s all suddenly desperating me.

“Kei-chan, Daiki,” Hikaru comes with lots of books on his hands.
“Don't you have class?” he asks.

“Cancelled,” I say lightly.
“I should go home... “ I say… My intention was only to see him anyway. I have seen him so probably I should go home… he has class after this too.

“Jaa, how about sneaking into our class?” Daiki asks. Huh? S-sneaking? Seriously?
“We have huge class conference, the lecturer won't notice you,” Daiki adds. Well… It’s too risky, but I the idea of seeing Hikaru inside his class is a good thing.
I look to Hikaru, since if someone is going to make a comment, it should be him. He’s the one with manners and everything. But he doesn't say anything.

“So? Wanna go?” Daiki asks.

“It’s okay if you want, it’s over 100 persons in class, you won't be noticed,” Hikaru says. Well… It’s a rare chance to see Hikaru in class, and I want to see him in class so why not?

“O-okay,” I say. Hikaru and Daiki smile.

--

-Day???, 11:30, Computer Network class : Inoo Kei-

I have no idea of what the f*ck the lecturer is saying. I can catch things like network, but beyond that, I don't know at all.
I look at Hikaru, it’ll all that I can imagine. He looks so serious, and I like seeing him being serious. It’s so charming. He’s taking notes like a good student would, while Daiki spinning his pen and practically not listening.

“You don't take notes?” I ask. Daiki shakes his head.

“I copy Hikaru’s… In fact most of us in this class copy Hikaru’s when the mid term approaching,” Daiki says. Now that is beyond what I expected. I know Hikaru is smart, but I didn't know that he's that figure in the class of being the ‘everyone’s note book’.

I look to Hikaru again and noticing that his right hand is doing something under the desk while he’s writing his note. I try to look down to the desk and damn it… I didn't expect that...
He’s playing an online game on his laptop under the desk. He’s good at multi tasking! I mean, really?! Taking notes while playing, not to mention playing with non-dominant hand is hard af.

“...I thought you're the good student type?” I whisper to Hikaru. Hikaru laughs lightly

“Me? Really?” He says.

“...alright so with that, let’s review this chapter. You in the back, what is three phases of Circuit Switching?” the lecturer asks. He points to out derection...
WAIT! Is he talking to me?!

“Yes you, the one next to Yaotome-san,” he says… WAIT A MINUTE! Hi-hikaru is sitting in the corner… and and I-I’m sitting next to him… i-is he really asking to me?
I-I don't know what the f*ck is that!

Maybe sneaking is a bad idea after all! What do I do?! What do I do?!

I try to look at Daiki asking for help, but I forget he’s not taking any notes.
I look at Hikaru and he’s laughing at me. Damn him! Then he slides his notes to me and taps a point there. Then I realized it’s the answer.

“Ah! Um… it’s setup, data transfer, and tear down,” I say whatever Hikaru is writing in his note. And wow, his hand writing his not as neat as I thought it would. It looked like a typical guys handwriting, quite a mess, but readable.

“Excellent, next, you with red hair, …” I don't care what the lecturer says afterwards. I’m just glad I’m saved. I look at Hikaru and he’s already focused on his game under the desk.

“Thanks,” I say. He laughs lightly.

“You know, it supposed to be your boyfriend who you asked for help when you are in trouble, not his friend,” Hikaru says. But duh, you’re not even my real boyfriend. Though I wish you are. He has that reliable boyfriend material.
“By the way, you owe me a diner,” he says jokingly while still playing under the desk. I just laugh. This guy is really something.
~~~


[Extra 2]
~~~
-The set is before they are dating-
-Day xxx, 16:00, Hikaru's living room : Yaotome Hikaru-

I’m reading my book and it’s reaching its end. I might to take a trip to buy a new book. I want to enjoy my last pages of book but Inoo walking back and forth in the kitchen makes me can’t concentrate.

“What’s with you?” I ask, just because he is bothering me.

“I’m in dilemma,” he says. Hmm? Dilemma?

“What dilemma?” I ask.

“Mio’s birthday is approaching. I want to buy something she really likes… but I’m too shy to buy it,” he says. Mio? Oh… Haruhiko Akira’s girl. I think he's close only to the boyfriend, but to the girlfriend too I see.

“What do you want to buy for her? An girl clothes or something?” I ask. What kind of a gift he is too embarrassed to buy?

“No… It'll be much easier to buy girls purse than this…” he says. Hmm? What is it actually. It makes me disquisitive.

“Want me to accompany you?” I ask. Perhaps having acompany will make him feel little better.

“No, that's even worse!” he says.

“What isnit actually you want to buy?” I ask, curious.

“...BL mangas…”

Well… if that is the case… no wonder if he’s embarrassed to buy it. Hahahaha. Kind of cute.
Though it makes me wonder something.

“Don't you yourself read that kind of manga?” I ask. I mean, he’s a gay, so I figure perhaps he likes gay romance stories.

“I don't! Even if I do, I read it online,” he says, suddenly his face turning red. Hahahaha, makes me wants to tease him.

“It’s just… I can't take that weird look the register guy would give me. I am a gay, but no one likes to get that kind of weird look. Gay is not weird!” he says. Somehow it turning into his argument speech. I can't help but to laugh.

“Jaa, let me buy it for you. Just pick it up, I’ll do the register stuff,” I say. Well, actually I know this bookstore with self-registering machine.

“R-really? Gosh you’re an angel!” he says with sparkling eyes.
It’s funny seeing him troubled over a simple thing. Actually he could just buy a warping paper along with the book, that way the register won't give him the look, but oh well, if he’s that happy with my help, then why not… I want to buy a new book anyway.
~~~


[Extra 3]
~~~
-This is shortly after they start dating-
-Day xxx, 20:00, Hikaru’s room : Inoo Kei-

Yuto and Daiki come to visit. Seems like Yuto and Hikaru are being friends like usual again. I think there aren't hard feeling about me rejecting him anymore.
They are lying on Hikaru’s bed. I sit on his computer chair while Hikaru is sitting on the single couch while plauing his bass. He looks so f*cking cool.

“Hey, Hika, you changed your wifi password?” Yuto asks. Ugh… Wi-Fi password… Hikaru’s Wi-Fi password is no kidding.

“It’s reset every once per 3 month, security dude,” Hikaru says. I don't really understand what’s the merit of changing it periodically, but seems like it is an essential thing.

“What’s the password now?” Daiki asks, seems like they want it so bad.

“The interger number of smaller result of 7x^2 + 9x + 59,” Hikaru says.
“Written with alphabeth,” He adds. His friends look at him with such “really?” face. I can only laughs. He… actually told me the same thing when I asked him… and I still can't find the solution…

“You’re hacker in training... I’m not risking my computer privacy to you,” Hikaru jokes. I don't really understand but Hikaru explains to me once that you can hack someone’s computer through the same network.

“You’re the one who talks, you f*cking hack me 5 times!” Daiki says. I expect Hikaru to comment on his language but he isn't.

“Kei-chan, do you know the password?” Yuto asks. Well, honestly I don’t. I… I tried, but can't figure the right answer.

“No way… even your own boyfriend? You are monster…” Yuto says. Hikaru just laughs.

“You both are hacker in training… so I challenge you to hack it,” Hikaru says. He put down his bass.

“Really? I accept your challenge, this will be a good practice,” Yuto says. Daiki nods and strats doing something on their laptops. Then my phone rings. It’s from Hikaru.

Hikaru : Two2
Me : What's that?
Hikaru : Wifi password
Me : Why? I thought I need to solve that algebra first

Hikaru then come closer to me and smiles, he then whispers.

“Special person gets special access,” he says. Oh… ////// damn you Hika for making me feeling so damn happy over that single statement.
“It also comes with a price though,” he says, grinning to me. It’s rare for Hikaru to flirt, especially when there are his friends. But I guess they are busy cracking the password.

“What?” I ask. He stands in front of me and touches my lips, then his own.

//// that kind of price?! Really?!

Hell I would pay it a lot of times! He bends down and I kiss him like he asks me.

Oh, what a good life I have. I’m blessed.
~~~


I'm gonna miss them~

Thank you for reading XD

Faking Game - Chapter 12 (END)

Title : Faking Game
Pairing : Hikaru x Inoo
Words Count : ~3300
Rating : PG
Genre : Romance, university-life
Summary : Inoo is on his 3rd semester on Architecture, his love interest is guys and he's having trouble with his friends. Mean while Hikaru is on his 5th semester on Computer Science, he still can't get over his first love and he has trouble with his girl friends. They accidently met, and they make a fake relationship to solve their problem with their friends.
Note : -Hikaru is 1 year and 6 months older
-It's on 1st POV, changes between Inoo and Hikaru every cutline. It's marked with a format like this :

-Day XXX, *time* *location* : *Whose POV it is*-


Sorry for the late update, and sorry for not replying comments, I've been quite busy re-learning Japanese
I want to take the oficial test in July, wish me luck!
And enjoy the last chapter!


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Faking Game - Chapter 11

Title : Faking Game
Pairing : Hikaru x Inoo
Words Count : ~3200
Rating : PG
Genre : Romance, university-life
Summary : Inoo is on his 3rd semester on Architecture, his love interest is guys and he's having trouble with his friends. Mean while Hikaru is on his 5th semester on Computer Science, he still can't get over his first love and he has trouble with his girl friends. They accidently met, and they make a fake relationship to solve their problem with their friends.
Note : -Hikaru is 1 year and 6 months older
-It's on 1st POV, changes between Inoo and Hikaru every cutline. It's marked with a format like this :

-Day XXX, *time* *location* : *Whose POV it is*-

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Faking Game - Chapter 9 & 10

Title : Faking Game
Pairing : Hikaru x Inoo
Words Count : ~5300
Rating : PG
Genre : Romance, university-life
Summary : Inoo is on his 3rd semester on Architecture, his love interest is guys and he's having trouble with his friends. Mean while Hikaru is on his 5th semester on Computer Science, he still can't get over his first love and he has trouble with his girl friends. They accidently met, and they make a fake relationship to solve their problem with their friends.
Note : -Hikaru is 1 year and 6 months older
-It's on 1st POV, changes between Inoo and Hikaru every cutline. It's marked with a format like this :

-Day XXX, *time* *location* : *Whose POV it is*-

Note 2 : I update 2 at once as a make-up for not updating for 5 days XD, I was having a vacation, sorry about that~

[Chapter 9]
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-Day 10, 13:00, Database lab : Yaotome Hikaru-

Today is a busy day for me, since I have a responsibility to assist my lecturer to teach the 3rd semesterer a database structure. I'm at break now though, and I'm thinking to get some lunch with Yuto and some otheer at the cafeteria. I think they're there already. When I walk there, my phone rings, it's an email.

Inoo : Can I come inside your room?
Hikaru : Now?
\\ Why would he want to come inside my room?
Inoo : Yes.
Hikaru : Well, sure, but what for?
Inoo : Cleaning. I didn't clean on weekends like I supposed to.
\\ Oh, what a modest guy.
Hikaru : Okay. But don't mess with anything on my computer table. The key is in library second drawer.
\\ Those are important things I need for my study, and if he cleans it I won't be able to find what I need and have to look for it first.
Inoo : Okay.
Inoo : Can I mess with other things though?
Hikaru : Like what?
Inoo : Like porn magazine under your bed...
Hikaru : I don't have porn magazine. But if you somehow magically finds one, go ahead =D

He's a funny person, serious but sometimes humorous too and I think that's good.

--

-Day 10, 16:00, Hikaru's room : Inoo Kei-

I finished my cleaning, and I'm in hunting of those porn magazine. If I can find it, I'm sure I'll stop loving him. I mean... if I find porn magazine with nude girls, it just confirms that he only attracted to girls, meaning I have like 0 chance. That's probably good, because I want to forget him. I better do so, before I'm even more hurt. Not to mention, I just figured that that bunny I drunkenly bought cost me f*cking 7375 yen. Damn that rabbit, and it's so huge it's taking up too much space in my room!

I'm looking under the bed now, but I can't find anything. He is hiding it real good! I look around his table too, but finds nothing. His laptop is clean too, nothing in it. Even the library laptop is clean. Oh, right. That library laptop, I figure it out what’s it for. It’s for e-book. He has lots of e-book in that laptop. But... no porn. That laptop is really clean.
Anyway, back to the real matter here. I need to find some bad side of him.

Ah! I know, there must be some hidden doors again. I try to open his closet. His closet is like small room, he has lots of fashionable clothes and shoes.

I crawl under the shoes rack and find somewhat drawer hidden underneath it. There! It's must be there! I'm about to open it but my hand stops.

"It's where I keep my underwear... You won't find porn there," those words are why my hands stop. I freeze, I don't dare to look behind... Will he be mad because he caught be investigating his room? I finally manage to look at him, he is leaning his back to the door and giggling.

"I never thought you really will look for it," he says. He doesn't have any idea how hard I've been looking for it.
"Do you want to read porn magazine that much?" He asks. No! He got the wrong idea! Now I look like a pervert!

"No! I just want to find your bad side," I say honestly. He gives me a confused look and tilts his head. Well... anyone would find my behavior weird.

"Why?" he asks, still giggling a little.

"It's just... You're handsome, popular, smart, rich... there must be bad part about you... I figure you might be a big pervert..." I say. He laughs again.

"I have a lot of bad side, you just don't look closely," he says.
"Come on out..." he says as he offers me his hand to help me stand up. I take it and he raises me up.

"You're too perfect you're scaring me," I say. What I want to say is actually "You're too perfect that I fall for you," but I couldn't possibly say that. He ruffles my head and throw himself to the bed, he looks tired. Maybe his classes made him tired, I’ve seen his agenda once, and it’s so tight.

"I'm not perfect, no one is," he says.

"I'll... I'll make some tea," I say. I just want to run away.

"That would be great. Call me when it's ready, and let's have a talk," he says.

--

-Day 11, 13:00, Architecture hall : Inoo Kei-

Just so you know, I haven't given up on looking for his bad side. I gotta find something that will make me turns off. Or at least unattractive side of him. I don’t know where to look, but I’ll find it for sure.

--

-Day 11, 14:00, Kei's room (Hikaru's house): Inoo Kei-

I don't know what else can I do to look for his bad side, so I lie down on my bed to think about it. Hmmm what would it be? I don't think he has bad habits, his room is quite tidy too. So what is it? If there’s something bad I can spot, he is dense as f*ck for not noticing I’m in love with him up until now... but... that isn’t strong enough to turn me off.

I'm in my deep thought when suddenly I hear the front door cracking open. It must be Hikaru just came home from the uni. Maybe I should just ask what kind of embarrassing bad side he has. So I walk down to the living room. I'm about to ask him, but I stop when I see how red his face is. He is crying. As in... really crying.

"Hikaru-kun?" I tried to call. He looks up to me and weep away his tears.

"Can I borrow your bunny? I need a hug..." he says, sobbing like a little puppy. I quickly run to my room and try to pick up that f*cking gigantic bunny. It was Hikaru who brought it up here, and I have no idea that this is this heavy. I tried to pick it up anyway.

--

-Day 11, 14:30, Hikaru's living room : Inoo Kei-

It's been 30 minutes and Hikaru is still clinging to that bunny. I was wrong, that bunny is worth to purchase. At least I got to see Hikaru being helpless and hugging this huge bunny of mine. Do you have any idea how cute is that? It's f*cking cute I tell you!

"Is there something wrong?" I ask, though I sound so stupid for asking that after watching him silently crying for about 30 minutes.

"There is. I have a broken heart," he says. Broken heart? Who f*cking dare breaking his heart?!

"If you want to, you can tell me," I say, lightly, pretending like I don't really want to know, when the truth is damn I want to know so much.

"Do you remember about the girl I like?" he asks. Oh right, the one you told me about in the hotel. The one made me drunk and bought that gigantic bunny, of course I do.I nod my head lightly. I sit next to him, slowly patting his back.

"She got herself a boyfriend... She said she's tired of waiting for me," he says. I know I should be sad because he's heart broken, but I wonder why I feel a little happy. Damn me, right? But well, if it's about heart broken stuff, I don't think I can help, all I can do is be there, and that's all.

"I'm sorry to hear that," is all I can say. He lean his head to the bunny's neck and silently sighing. I wonder if there's something I can do to cheer him up...Wait... I've been heart broken before... Those 4 straight guys made me... let's see what did I do to cheer myself then? First thing first, he might need some alone time, so I'll leave for a while...

"Let me know if you need anything," I say, trying to be gentle but damn I sound so stupid. He only smiles and leans his face to the bunny again.

--

-Day 11, 16:00, Hikaru's living room : Inoo Kei-

He looks better now, at least he isn't looking all stressed like before. I bought home some pizza, his mother told me he likes this particular topping on pizza so I bought it... Though... actually... I'm running low because of that stupid so-damn-expensive bunny. To the hell with it. But well, that bunny seems to help Hikaru too, so I guess it's alright.

"Up for some pizza?" I ask, trying to sound casual. He shakes his head. Ah, of course, heart broken makes you just don't want to eat.
"I have no argument if you want to mourn over it as much as you want. In fact, I'll always be here if you want to talk, but don't harass your own body, Hikaru-kun," I say.
"Oh, it's tuna melt with mozzarella," I add. His eyes sparkle like starts.

"Give it to meeeee!" He says as he hugs the bunny again.

"No come here, don't dirty Mr. Bunny!" I say, randomly. He laughs.

"What a literal name..." he says, before finally he stands up and gets his pizza. At least he's a little bit cheering up now.

--

-Day 11, 18:00, Hikaru's living room : Yaotome Hikaru-

I really want to quell crying, it's so unmanly of me, but even though I want to stop, my tears running down like a waterfall. My chest feels so hurt, it's painful. She's someone I've been in love with her like forever, she said she liked me too and will wait until our graduation, but now she has a boyfriend. She has no idea how that hurts me, selfish girl she is. To make it worst, he is someone I know, and someone who is aware of my feeling for her.

"Tea," he says as he gives me a cup of warm tea. He doesn't talk much today, and he doesn't try to talk to me too, in fact it is just what I needed. I do not need flummox people right now. I need sometime to pity myself.

"I want more..." I say. I want some more pizza. It's the best thing to make me feel better, at least pizza can’t hurt me.

"Okay," he says before he picks up his phone. Afterwards I just don't know what he's doing, because I'm too busy to think about myself. About how my heart still aching.

Ah, come to think about it... she's my first love. The more I think about it, the more I get hurt, but even though I don't want to think about it, that moment she told me about her new boyfriend keep on playing on my mind. The image of her saying "I'm tired of waiting," keeps showing up inside my mind no matter how much I try to ignore it.

I need a friend to listen to me... but I can't tell something like this to my friends now as right now in their eyes I'm Inoo's boyfriend, which is weird if I get a heart broken when I have a boyfriend.

I can't tell my high school friends too, they'll make fun of me... And what I need right now is not that.

Since I can't tell anyone, I'll just hug this bunny. Besides, this bunny actually really comforting me.

--

-Day 11, 20:00, Hikaru's living room : Inoo Kei-

Hikaru just finished his pizza. He ate the whole pizza on his own. I guess he's really hurt. Hmm... what else can I do for him? I want his laugh back... I want his cheerful self back... I want his smile back.

"You can take the bunny to your room if you like," I say. From the look the bunny is quite comforting for him.

"Really?" he asks. His voice is still trembling.

"Un," I say.

"Jaa, can I take you to my room too today?" he asks. H-huh? M-me? /////
"...I need a friend," he adds. Ah... yeah... friend... Geez! What am I thinking?! He needs support and all I think is about my own unrequited love. Damn me! I have to cheer him up. I want the smile back!

"Sure," I say with a smile.

--

-Day 11, 22:00, Hikaru's room : Yaotome Hikaru-

I'm not self pitying myself anymore, but the flashback of her pretty face telling me the news is still playing inside my head. It's excruciating me. Even the bunny can't calm me down anymore. But rather than sad, I'm more angry now. If only I ask her out way back after I realized my feeling, then things won't be like this.

I wo-- OUCH

"Why are you hitting me?!" I ask, Inoo slapped me so suddenly that I stop my thought.

"Because you haven't say anything, I even start wondering if you are aware that I'm here," he says. Well, actually, I did kind of forget. Forgive me.

"I'm sorry... I just got some things to think," I say. He smiles warmly. He pulls the blanket over his body and gives me the other end of the blanket.

"It's cold tonight," he says. Ah, I didn't even realized that. I put the blanket over me too and then stare at Inoo's face. I just realized how kind he is to me. He really treated me well and he's trying his best to help me overcome this heartache.

"Thanks," I say.
"Thank you for being considerate today... You even bought me pizza and everything," I say. I'm really grateful, at least now I know I have someone I can rely on. Maybe I can tell how upset I am now to him.

"It's okay," he says, he lets out such cute smile as if he's happy to help. His nice smile makes me smile too.

"Can I... talk with you?" I ask. We haven't known each other for that long, so I'm afraid I would only be a trouble for him.

"I told you, didn't I? I'm here for you," he says and smiles nicely.

He's... so amiable.

--

-Day 12, 10:00, Mathematics class : Yaotome Hikaru-

Thanks to Inoo who patiently listen to my stories until I'm satisfied, I feel so much better now. At least that scene doesn't play over and over in my head. Sometimes I still got reminded, but not as often as yesterday.

Oh, I got an e-mail.

Inoo : How are you feeling?
Me : I'm fine, thank you.
Inoo : What do you want to eat today?
Me : I want something warm
//It’s so cold lately, and warm things actually calms me.
Inoo : How is stew? I never made it though, but I find a recipe on the internet.
Me : Beef stew?!
Inoo : Un?
Me : Make it! Make it!
Inoo : I'll be waiting at home then~
Me : You sounds like a wife
// hahahaha
Inoo : Damn you hahaha

--

-Day 12, 14:00, Physics class : Yaotome Hikaru-

I can't concentrate as all I can think is how regretful I am. I should have asked her out, and that is all what I have in my mind. I'm not as sad as I was yesterday, but I get even more regretful now. I hate myself now. Rather than sadness, it's anger.

Ugh... I'm hungry... my stomach starts to growl.

Suddenly I want to just go home and eat Inoo's stew.

--

-Day 12, 16:00, Inoo's room (Hikaru's house) : Inoo Kei-

I shut my phone down. My problem with my brother is getting bigger. I don't think he's going to admit his wrong. Well it’s not like any of us is wrong, it’s about opinion, but it’s my life, not his, so... I don’t think what he’s doing is right.

Ah wait, it's this late... I should make the stew Hikaru wants.

He might look fine on the outside now, but I bet he's still hurt instead. From what I've experience, the hardest part is a few days after you get a broken heart. So he must be on his hardest time now.


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-Day 12, 19:00, Hikaru's living room : Yaotome Hikaru-

I feel like I want to cry again. The feeling of sadness comes back so suddenly. But I didn't of course. I don't want to make Inoo worried. Yesterday he works his best to cheer me up, so I can't be weak in front of him. Beside... it's just heart broken, right? I wish I can think it that way.

"It's ready, come on~" Inoo says. I walk slowly to the kitchen. Uaa, the smells makes me droll. It smells so good.

Forget about my heart broken, it's been a year since I eat stew and his stew seems so delicious.

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-Day 12, 19:30, Hikaru's kitchen : Yaotome Hikaru-

His stew is fantastic! It's even better than my mom's, I have to say that. His other food though, taste like average person's cooking, but this is something else.

"So... are you feeling better?" he asks. I nod my head, even though I'm actually not that fine, but at least, I think I'll be fine, at least I'm not feeling the most unfortunate anymore. He smiles thinly.I think there's something wrong with him. His smile isn't like usual. There's a difference.

"You okay?" I ask. Inoo nods lightly.

"Just... my brother and I, but nothing more," he says.

I guess I'm not the only one who has problem. He has too, and like he had support me, I want to support him too.

"If you ever need someone, I'm here," I say, returning what he said to me yesterday, and I mean it.

"Thank you, but I think I'll be okay," he says, he smiles, and this time it's like the usual cheer-ish smile.

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-Day 13, 18:00, Hikaru’s room : Yaotome Hikaru-

If you want to know how am I feeling right now, then the answer would be fine. I'm fine. Still broken of course, but I'm starting to let her go. I'm actually not expecting this, I thought the pain would stay longer, but it's not.

By the way... what makes the dinner took so long?

I come down to check on Inoo who has been cooking dinner since 17:00 earlier. When I come down, I see him stare blankly to the wall while holding a knife.

"Kei-chan?" I ask.

"Ah... Oh..." looks like he just snaps from his daydream.

"You alright?" I ask. From an hour ago, he hasn't made anything. All he done was cutting a carrot.

"Ah... Un..." he says. That's completely a lie, I know that. I take his knife and put it on the sink. He looks so sad for some reason I don't know. He looks so fragile this moment that my sense of wanting to protect is tingling.

"I'll cook, sit down there, hug the bunny," I say as I pat his head. His eyes still looks agitated, and it made me worried.

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-Day 13, 19:30, Hikaru's living room : Inoo Kei-

I have so much problem with my brother that I can't even concentrate on cooking. For that reason, Hikaru cooks for tonight.

I don't know what to do to face up my brother again. I don't know if he's too idiot or just too prideful to admit his lose to me. Because he's definitely losing, yet still resisting. Besides... his argument was stupid from the start. Is he a retard or something? Really! UGH!

?? What's this good smell?

"It's chicken soup," Hikaru says with smile. It smells so good. But what makes me feel better is what he says next.

"Sleep with me tonight, we can hug if you like," he says. I don't know what's happening to him... Did he hit his head or something? He never offer something like this before, but that offer surely makes me happy.

Perhaps this whole relationship I have with Hikaru won't go smooth, he's straight and definitely still wants that girl, else he won’t be on that much grief on losing her. And my issue with my brother seems won't come to its end anytime soon. But at least, let me have a dreamy night tonight, even though it's just hug out of pity.

TBC

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[Chapter 10]
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-Day 13, 20:00, Hikaru’s room : Inoo Kei-

I don’t know what did I dream about last night, but this might be my happiest moment in my life. I’m in Hikaru’s bed, I’m hugging my bunny and Hikaru is hugging me from behind. Like, REALLY HUGGING!

“Can I ask what’s wrong?” he asks, so gently that I could flail.

“No,” I say, since I don’t want to say anything about my brother just yet. And let me have this moment of happiness for a while without thinking about my brother.

“Okay,” he says. Oh, God, I want to cry from happiness right now. F*ck my brother, my life is wonderful.

He never really force me to say anything. That day when we were in the hotel, he didn’t ask any further when I say it’s not okay to ask. I like that part of him. It feels like he’s giving me the space I need unlike other people. Maybe, that’s why I’m so in love with him.

“Are you okay though?” he asks. It’s a nice thing that he’s still concern of me. I’m quite happy of that little question.

“No,” I say honestly. He hugs me even more tightly.

“Can I do something for you to make you feel better?” he asks. Stay like this, forever?

“Stay like this,” I say. It sure makes me happy, even though it doesn’t solve any problem that I have but at least I feel happy.

“Alright,” He says. His voice is so sweet. Deep and refreshing to my mind.

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-Day 14, 01:00, Hikaru’s room : Inoo Kei-

He’s still awake, because I still am. It’s Friday, and he has class this morning, even so, he’s still accompanying me. We talked about lots of things, he tried to make me forget about my problem, and that’s nice.

“It’s late, you sure it’s okay not to sleep?” I ask to him. He laughs lightly as if I ask something funny. It’s 1 AM right? Isn’t it time to sleep?

“If it’s just a day or two, I can go without sleep,” he laughs lightly again. He ever said that to me once, it’s when we went to the Amusement Park if I’m not wrong. But... isn’t it unhealthy.

“But, it’s unhealthy, you know?” I say. Hikaru nods, I can feel his head nodding.

“I know, but it’s okay,” he says.
“You should take a day off tomorrow, or perhaps I should stay too today,” he adds. ? he means like ditching class?

“You mean ditching class?” I ask, he nods again.

“Take it as sick leave, I’ll get you a doctor’s sick leave letter,” he says. Huh? How will he get a doctor’s sick leave letter? But... The idea of ditching class today is not bad... If I have a day off today, maybe I can talk to my brother again and make up with him for good. Seriously this whole heir stuffs are sh*t, I don’t even want any.

“Can you really get me a sick leave letter?” I ask. He nods.

“Un, I’ll deliver it to your lecturers too,” he says. Oh, just how nice he is. I fall for him even harder.
“Just for this time. Just because you’re in your unwell state, okay?” he says gently. I nod.
“Now you should go to sleep,” he says. His arms are still warping around me and I feel so warm even though the night is really cold.

“Un, good night,” I say.

“Yes, good night,” he says gently, his voice is so soft that I feel like I need to hear it again.

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-Day 14, 10:00, Architecture Building : Yaotome Hikaru-

He looks so sad and helpless that I feel like so sorry and I feel like I need to protect him. I got him a sick leave letter from my father. My father is a retired doctor who has his own clinic so yeah, I can get him make me a sick leave for Kei.

“Excuse me, Haruhiko-san, is it?” I ask. I don’t really remember his name. It’s one of Kei’s friend who made us go for a double date.

“Ah, Yaotome-san, What’s up?” he asks. Oh, I got it right? I take out the letter and give it to him.

“Can you deliver this to the lecturer? Kei is sick and he needs some rest,” I say lightly.

“Oh, he’s sick, from what? Can we see him?” he asks.

“Oh, he’s having a fever, and I don’t think he wants to see anyone yet,” I say. He gives me a smirk and laughs.

“Oh fever? So finally you did it huh~ Nice~ Remember to clean him up though. Okay, I’ll give it to the lec,” he says. Huh? Did what?

?

Oh, whatever.

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-Day 14, 19:00, Hikaru’s living room : Inoo Kei-

Things not going well with my brother. He keeps on insisting. I’m sulking now, and I don’t know what to do. Thank God tomorrow’s Saturday and I don’t need to go to university, so I can sulk all night.

“I’m home,” a sweet sweet voice greets me.
“Feeling any better?” he asks gently, he throws his bags to the couch and his phone to the table.

“No, I went home and tried to talk, but it gets worse...” I say. It burdens me so much, mentally, like f*ck that f*cking brother, he makes my life feels so hard to live on.

“Want to sleep in my room again?” he asks as he unpack something from a paper bag he has been carrying. His offer sounds so wonderful, but I’m afraid I’ll burden him... but... I really want to--
“It’s okay, for me it’s not a trouble,” he says, as if he can read through my mind, my concern.

“Re-really?” for some reason I don’t even know, I’m shuttering like a damn little puppy.

“Un, besides, your bunny is still in my room,” he says. I smile, oh, how how sweet he is. Then he takes out two take-out box. Looks like it’s out dinner. I feel guilty for being a freeloader and not doing my offers. I mean, I should have clean the house on the weekend, but I didn’t. And I supposed to cook, and I didn’t tonight.

“It’s oriental rice bowl,” he says.
“It’s your mother cooking,” he adds.... ... WHAT? I LIKE THAT SO MUCH! I jump up and take the box from him, open it to confirm if the food is really oriental rice like he mentioned. and IT IS!

“How did you get this?!” I ask.

“I ask your mother what’s your favorite food and she told me to come over and take this home for you,” he says. Damn it... why he is acting so sweet for me like this... It makes me even harder to decide if I should forget him or not. The whole thing with my brother made me stop thinking about my love issue, which is if it is still alright for me to try to get Hikaru’s heart when I know completely that he is straight and has a girl he wants to get out with.

“Kei-chan? Are you okay? You look like you’re about to tear up,” his words make snaps from my deep thought.

“Ah, no... I’m just...” I pause.
“Why do you do this for me? I mean... last night hug? This meal?” I ask, hoping it’s something like : “Because I like you,”, but I know it’s not going to happen. He just smiles and pats my head, but he didn’t say anything.

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-Day 14, 19:20, Hikaru’s living room : Yaotome Hikaru-

“Why do you do this for me? I mean... last night hug? This meal?” he asks. ... well... I don’t know myself. Kei’s helpless face just makes me do all these. So I just smile and pats his head.
You know, Kei, perhaps, I just want your smile back to your pretty face. But instead of saying so I say something else...

“Well, do I need a reason?”

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-Day 15, 00:30, Hikaru’s room : Yaotome Hikaru-

He’s hugging his bunny while lying next to me. He still looks stressed. I’m getting worried, if this goes on, he might be sick. He’s still up, and I know that.

“Kei...” I try to call, so softly.

“Y-yeah?” he responds. He sounds shaky... Is he... crying?

“Want a hug?” I ask, because I think he needs one. He turns to me and suddenly hugs me and cries... not really crying, there isn’t a single tear, but I think he wants to cry.
“Kei, what’s wrong?” I ask, trying to be as affable as I can.

“Can I tell you about me and my brother? I don’t think I can keep it to myself anymore,” he says. I understand if he has this feeling of needing someone to talk to, and for that I will listen to him.

“Sure,” I say, while patting his head.

I’m kind of pleased that finally he’s open up to me.

“So, the whole thing is about my brother doesn’t want me to be a gay,” he says.
“I’m the older one, and he has been shamming me for being a gay. I know I’m not normal... but... it’s my orientation... and I don’t want to change it. I already gave him my explanation but... all he does is mock me up... and saying he would never admit me as his brother...” he says. Ouch that’s bleak.

“If it’s just that, I wouldn’t mind but... he is demanding me to drop my family name... because I’m a gay... isn’t it just like a joke?” he says. Well, that is ridiculous. Dropping a family name over that. It’s just... well... stupid.

“I’m sorry, but I think your brother is just stupid,” I say, letting out my true opinion. He laughs lightly and hugs me tighter.

“I know...” he hisses. I hug him, hoping it would ease him, even though I know it wouldn’t do much.

“And this morning when I tried to talk him over again, he just insisted that I should never step my foot on that house again,” he says. What? There’s more? That brother is just crazy! I mean, what’s wrong with being a gay? Even though he’s a gay, he’s still the nicest person I’ve ever met. If he’s not a nice person, he wouldn’t have helped me through my heart broken.

“Didn’t your parents say anything?” I ask. He nods.

“They did. But that stupid brother of mine are just too idiot to understand. And he’s the youngest child so, you know...” he states. He looks like he’s about to cry again.

“I don’t know what should I advice you, since I’m never had a chance to fight with my sister... and I’m an only child now... but if you need my help of any kind, just spell the words, okay?” I say. He nods but then he looks up to me with his still-teary eyes.

“Never had a chance?” he quotes me. Right, never had the chance. And honestly, I wish I had.

“She died before she could even speak,” I say, it happened years ago. I still sad to remember it, but since it’s already so long ago, I already be able to let her go.

“I’m sorry,” he says, his expression is sad. I ruffles his head and smiles.

“It’s okay,” I say.

“Can I know why?” he asks. I nod.

“She was killed by a robber. It happened when I was 7. She was still 1 year old,” I say.
“That’s why my mom designed this house with lots of secret doors, so if that ever happen again, I could hide and call for help,” I add. He doesn’t say anything, he just hugs me and rubs his head against my chest.

You know, I don’t know why in the world did I even think of this, but I think his brother is just an ultimate idiot. I would do anything to have a brother like Kei, no matter if he’s gay, he’s still nice and lovely.
I don’t want to see him sad like this.
It’s upsetting me, it’s agitating.
I wonder if there’s any way I can help him, but it’s a family matter, I can’t be too nosy.

You know, if that’s how Kei’s brother treating Kei, then I might as well keep Kei here forever. So I can make sure no idiots can hurt him like this.

TBC
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Faking Game - Chapter 8

Title : Faking Game
Pairing : Hikaru x Inoo
Words Count : ~2500
Rating : PG
Genre : Romance, university-life
Summary : Inoo is on his 3rd semester on Architecture, his love interest is guys and he's having trouble with his friends. Mean while Hikaru is on his 5th semester on Computer Science, he still can't get over his first love and he has trouble with his girl friends. They accidently met, and they make a fake relationship to solve their problem with their friends.
Note : -Hikaru is 1 year and 6 months older
-It's on 1st POV, changes between Inoo and Hikaru every cutline. It's marked with a format like this :

-Day XXX, *time* *location* : *Whose POV it is*-

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Faking Game - Chapter 7

Title : Faking Game
Pairing : Hikaru x Inoo
Words Count : ~2500
Rating : PG
Genre : Romance, university-life
Summary : Inoo is on his 3rd semester on Architecture, his love interest is guys and he's having trouble with his friends. Mean while Hikaru is on his 5th semester on Computer Science, he still can't get over his first love and he has trouble with his girl friends. They accidently met, and they make a fake relationship to solve their problem with their friends.
Note : -Hikaru is 1 year and 6 months older
-It's on 1st POV, changes between Inoo and Hikaru every cutline. It's marked with a format like this :

-Day XXX, *time* *location* : *Whose POV it is*-

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Faking Game - Chapter 6

Title : Faking Game
Pairing : Hikaru x Inoo
Words Count : ~2500
Rating : PG
Genre : Romance, university-life
Summary : Inoo is on his 3rd semester on Architecture, his love interest is guys and he's having trouble with his friends. Mean while Hikaru is on his 5th semester on Computer Science, he still can't get over his first love and he has trouble with his girl friends. They accidently met, and they make a fake relationship to solve their problem with their friends.
Note : -Hikaru is 1 year and 6 months older
-It's on 1st POV, changes between Inoo and Hikaru every cutline. It's marked with a format like this :

-Day XXX, *time* *location* : *Whose POV it is*-

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